Stillness in the Storms of Motherhood
When the word “rest” comes up among a group of mothers I can guarantee I will hear some snarky comments, see a few eye ball roles and even sense some animosity among friends if one lucky momma in the group mentions she may have gotten some rare and coveted rest. Many moms just hear the word “rest” and quickly change the topic as they take a swig of coffee to wash down the reality that their heart, soul, mind and body are weary beyond words. There is little understanding of how a woman called to care for the lives of children who depend on her every waking and sleeping minute can even think about caring for herself.
We mamas make time to laugh. Play. Cook. Drive. Prepare. Listen. Schedule. Order. Clean. Organize. Fold. Hug. Wipe. Communicate.
We are intentional and serious about this role of motherhood that demands us to be present and delights us with joy.
But where is there time for rest?
We schedule nap time and quiet time and time outs for our children because we know without them they are not as healthy and whole as they could be.
We know the value of rest for our children, but do we know the value of rest for ourselves?
We mommas would all love to sit and read a magazine in the sunshine of a breezy afternoon with a cup of coffee; but we find that as soon as we stop the intense movement of motherhood we fall fast asleep and awaken to “Mooooooooooom I NEEEEEEED you” and we are behind schedule and in a puddle of our own drool with no dinner made and a feeling of guilt for falling asleep.
Motherhood is intense.
Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28 (NLT)
But rest is intentional.
I read this scripture hundreds of times over my life, but as a mom I would read it (with dark circles and blurred vision from not sleeping in 15 years) and be like, “YES! Jesus! I want rest! Give me this unattainable gift!”
Motherhood reality however kept this promise too far away from me. I was convinced God was mocking me or that this promise was for the “without children” demographic.
How was God going to give me, a mom of six children ages 2-16, this ambiguous gift of REST? Would he miraculously Insert an oasis in the middle of my mess (He knows I can’t go anywhere without a babysitter!). Would He remove the heavy load? (That didn’t make sense because I didn’t want him to remove my kids!) Send the merry maids so I can put my feet up? (Honestly, they didn’t even have to be merry….. even miserable maids would work!)”
At the age of 42 I gave birth to our sixth child. I felt like I was caught in a washing machine in a never ending spin cycle. I was in a state of delirium and dysfunction most days. My body hurt. My mind was numb. My spirit was empty. My emotions were fragile.
Weary is different than tired. Tired can be fixed with a nap. Weary is an inside tired that manifests in other issues. Weary must be met with intentional rest.
The literal meaning of rest as used in this verse our of Matthew is:
to cause or permit one to cease from any movement or labor in order to recover and collect her strength
to give rest, refresh, to give one's self rest, to TAKE rest
to keep quiet, of calm and patient expectation
God gives us rest and we must permit ourselves to make space in our motherhood to receive it.
Psalm 46:10 says, “Be still and know that I am God.”
If we pause our internal posture amidst our crazy, messy and overwhelming lives and allow God to have the heavy load we are carrying daily; we will find Him in a refreshing new way. In that quiet calm we get new expectation and vision for what we have been called to care for as He quietly cares for our soul. He visits us in the stillness and when we are found we are refilled with hope and vision. Vision for motherhood restores us to continue valuing motherhood.
We pause. He provides.
SHABOT:
God Himself rested on the 7th day of creation. He looked around Him and saw that everything was very good and He paused. He set aside time to be still. I bet he looked around at all He had created and just delighted in it. In our pausing we can see the details and the destiny of all we get to be a part of. Life becomes a duty when don’t pause to look around at the delightful details God is creating in the hard work of motherhood. The Hebrew word for rest is Shabott. It literally means rest. The Sabbath was given to us as an intentional way to create space to rest in our lives. If God values rest, so should we.
Motherhood is intense. Rest in intentional.
In our family we choose to find ways to stop the regularly scheduled crazy of life and delight in each other. It’s intentional. It’s relational. It’s delightful.
We aren’t loosing anything by setting aside a day to rest. We are gaining peace, joy, calm in the chaos and restored vision and refilled relationships. Rest gives back what we give away.
Rest is a practice that keeps us so we can keep on keeping on. Rest is not an event (like a manicure or an afternoon away with friends), it is a way of living. A rhythm. A cadence. Shabott helps us remember the rhythm so we don’t get lost in the rigor.
Choosing to Shabott gives us the opportunity to restore, refuel, reflect. Wonder and ponder, dream and remember. Setting aside a day to rest gives us the opportunity to know God, find God and recover our strength.
STORM STOPPER
Another way I have learned what rest means to me as a mother of many is to learn how to trust the storm stopper and not look into the storm.
Did you ever read the story of Jesus in the storm found in Matthew 8:23-27? We find Jesus fast asleep in the midst of all the crazy whirring of wind and clatter of thunder while beating rain pounds against the boat. (This kind of noise reminds me of motherhood!)
The kind of rest that Jesus was experiencing was the kind of internal rest that trusted beyond the storm. He knew He had power over the storm and therefore could rest assured knowing the storm was temporary and would not harm him or the disciples with him.
We can choose to be still and rest while life is whirling and twirling and clanging and banging around us.
We can learn to abide.
Abiding is the active choice to live in God’s presence internally no matter what is happening externally.
But, you say, I can’t stop the storms in my life. The chaos of children. The insanity of schedules gone out of control. The furious and crazy rhythm of life and all it brings…. I can’t stop it! How can I rest in it.
We learn to trust the one who quiets the storms while we go through them.
In motherhood we must learn to rest in the hope of the storm stopper and not get shaken by the storm.
When everything is threatening to sink our soul and flood our life boat with water we want to freak out and jump out! Jesus shows us that we can learn to be at peace in the stormy parts of motherhood because we trust Him to speak to the storm and cause it to stop. AND even if He doesn’t, we can learn to rest in His power and peace as we ride out the storm.
Abiding allows our soul to stay connected to the source of peace even when the situation around us has threatened to disconnect us from peace. Abiding in our source of strength, hope and power gives us an internal peace that passes anything we can understand or see in our external chaos.
As mothers we see the storms of life but we stay connected to the power source of peace on the inside so we are not shaken by the power of the storm on the outside.
Rest replenishes the soul of our inner girl so we can keep pouring out. Rest was given by God to us to give back what we have given away. Resting is meant to restore our empty places.
Motherhood is intense. Resting is intentional.
Motherhood is a calling. You are a gift. Rest is how we protect the calling and the gift God has given your family in your powerful role as mother.
REFLECT:
Wherever you are reading this I would ask you to pause. Choose to rest. Quiet your heart and ask God how you can learn to insert an intentional pause into your daily life. Practice being still and waiting to hear His voice whisper life back in to your weary heart. Intentionally begin to answer the following questions as you wait on the Lord to renew your strength as you rest in His power, presence and peace.
Questions to help you find rest for your soul:
How can you set aside a day you and your family can practice Shabott? What does that look like practically?
What stormy situations can you stop focusing on and start focusing on the power of the storm stopper?
Where can you intentionally insert a pause (even if it is just 5 minutes a day) so you can intentionally be still and know your God.
Practice pulling God’s presence into the reality of your motherhood and learn to abide. Right now, write any answers to these questions in the margins of this magazine. Be intentional about resting and watch God give you exactly what you have been needing. He will turn your weary into wonderous new life, vigor, vision, peace and joy.
